Wednesday, February 27, 2008

Melted & Blown Away

I melted last night. I was rocking my sweet baby girl and trying to get her to go back to sleep when she looks up at me, pulls out her paci (see sidebar below) and gives me one of her sweet wet kisses. She lays her head back down for a moment and then raises up to repeat the process. This time however, she gives me her kisses, stops, smiles and says..."Lau U" (translation...Love You!). I melted. Right then and there. Is this what everyone told me to wait for? Is this what I was really praying for all those nights through tears of disappointment & near hopelessness? God knew this was coming and it was coming just for me. What a precious gift I was not expecting! I can't wait to get there one day and give Him my kisses and tell Him I "lau u". I know He is just waiting for that moment with me, His daughter!


I was also blown away. As El would not go back to sleep, I brought her into our room for a moment to snuggle with momma & dada so she wouldn't wake up KG. After giving her kisses to her dada, she pulled up her blankie and laid her head on my stomach to sleep. As I played with her hair, as my mom, aunt & Grandmurna have done so many times in my life to get me to sleep, I wondered...did I grow up this fast? This baby in front of my just looked like a little girl and not a baby anymore. Where is the time slipping away to? How can I hold on to this moment forever.

Sometimes, we have to take snapshots in our minds and not our cameras. This moment in time will be one of my most memorable "photos".

*Sidebar...yes,I did say PACI. I know your thinking, I have never seen a picture of that child with a paci. That's because she hasn't had one until now. She found one two days ago in her toys and is addicted! For some reason this silly bumblebee paci is the absolute ONLY thing that will calm her down right now as she cuts all four molars at once. Oh well, I guess we will deal with the consequences later. For now, we all need some sleep!

9 comments:

Unknown said...

awwww...that is so sweet! I just got home and my kiddos are in bed and I can't wait to go up and kiss their sleepy little heads before I go to bed like I do every night.

Whitney said...

What a sweet story! Reading that just made me so excited about the adventure I'm about to begin with a new baby!

The paci thing is hilarious! Hopefully she will drop it as quickly as she picked it up!

Dallas said...

Those are the moments that make this parenting gig absolutely amazing and worth the tantrums, fevers, and tears.

Jill said...

Those are the moments you savor! There will be times in the next years that you need to remember that so you don't give her away, but once you survive those you hold onto them too. Parenting is such a ride! You hold on for dear life and pray that your seatbelt doesn't come undone. There isn't a moment with either one of mine that I would trade for all the gold in the world.

FYI...My niece Anna-Grace (who is now 10) didn't start taking a paci until she was 2 years old. She found one of her friends and put it in her mouth. We were all convinced that she would go to Kindergarten with it, but she didn't. It is just another funny memory you will carry with you. Plus, paci's make them look like babies anyway.

Jamie Chitty said...

Oh so Sweet!!!!! That makes me want to cry.

4under3 said...

Ohhhh Melissa. Thanks for the good sob session. Time to go redo my mascara.

I remember when Julia stopped during a night time nurse session to smile and coo at me for the first time. That's one of my very favorite memory snapshot.

I'm sure you'll never forget little El's "Lau U." Thanks for sharing such a special moment.

Suzanne said...

oh my gosh...if i knew i was gonna cry this much, after reading this post, i would have prepared myself with a box of kleenex. holy cow. what a beautiful story. gosh. they really do grow up fast? i was kinda hoping that was an urban myth or something made up. i am so bittersweet about it all.

Kim said...

Beautiful story!!! What an angel! And both of our still have the paci...I'm hoping they lose them before Kindergarten! haha

maria said...

I love hearing your comments about your sweet moments with Elliott. I have had those same moments with my two children, where my heart hurts from loving them so much. I guess you never really know how much your parents loved you until you become one yourself.